My Apology

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An open letter to my friend in despair

I apologize for not noticing the look of gloom and sadness on your face when you walked in.

I apologize for not putting in the extra efforts to decipher the reason behind your hesitation.

I apologize for insisting that you join in on the convo when all you wanted was to be alone.

I apologize for believing you when you said you weren't crying and it was just eye irritation.

I apologize for calling you a sissy when you said you were scared of opening up.

I apologize that I got offended when you said those words to me but in actual you were hurting like hell.

I apologize that I didn't even give you a chance to explain yourself. 

I apologize for not being there for you in your darkest times.

I am sorry. Only if I could undo the past.
I really, really love you. Always remember that.

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